I miss my eating disorder.?

I don't think you miss your eating disorder, it sounds like you miss being that thin. Self image is very important, though everyone wants to be thin. Control your eating, and just stay at this weight, its only 7 pounds heavier than your lowest weight, which is probably still very low in comparison to what you were. Don't go back to being in the abusive, "I have to lose weight state," because this will cause problems for you now, and become an even larger problem in the future. (Your bowels may eventually be dependent on laxatives, not enough energy lowers your ability to think, etc.)